Saturday, 13 February 2010
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black thumb, green thumb
I have a problem with authority.
Actually, I shouldn't say that. I have a problem with being submissive. I have a problem with being treated like shit when I only make $0.75 above minimum wage. I have a problem with a coworker that seems hellbent on getting me and another coworker screwed over. The management just eats this shit up because (we'll call the terror "H") relies heavily on being much older, and once H breaks out the tears, it practically seals the deal. It's either that, or H is severely unstable.
Yes, this is the same company that promoted me in a month because I did so well. And yes, this is the same company that told me, after I had been highly successful, to "dim my shine so that the other booksellers feel better about themselves." I shit you not.
I've decided my pathetic wage is not worth the hassle. I don't want to be treated like shit until I'm paid well enough for it. I feel frustrated half the time and I work weekends. I don't get a single day to have for rest. Class and shit Monday - Friday (with work peppered in) and then 8.5 hour shifts all weekend long. It's exhausting.
So F and I have come up with a great idea. I'm going to grow a lot of produce, and then sell a lot of it. Potatoes, carrots, onions, garlic, beans, peppers, tomatoes, basil, oregano, rosemary, thyme, you name it. Blackberries, too. I am also going to make journals. I plan on focusing a lot of my time and energy on gardening, selling my produce and journals, and being a student. I can make the same money, if not better, doing that. At least all of my marketing skills will go directly to our home, and not for some big fucking corporation that treats me like complete shit.
They may be better than most corporations, but that doesn't make them good.
Tuesday, 29 December 2009
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Christmas was the usual shebang - too much food, not enough money, and a dog that gets more gifts than the humans. The hubs and I thought it would be a great idea to get her these huge bones we bought for Christmas. She'll eat anything, so we figured it'd be great, plus extremely comical trying to watch her lug it around the house.
As soon as we gave it to her, she jumped and ran the other direction. Heart of a lion, that one. She wouldn't start chewing on it until Edgar was holding it, hiding its true size. She's a golden retriever, by the way. Aren't they supposed to be protective?
Sookie realized that the hole she had dug was too small.
I don't normally have such useless shit to say, but I'm exhausted and have to pump myself with NyQuil because I'm getting sick. I did it to myself, really - I get so stressed out and my body just can't handle it after awhile. We applied for a house today; should we get denied, I think I'll be done house hunting for awhile. I'm tired of getting screwed when it's not my husband doing it, and I'm exhausted from getting my hopes up and having them crushed. This whole house thing is what has primarily made me ill and I'm just ready to find any house and be done with it. I really love the one we found though, and I truly hope it works out. If we can get approved, which we will know by tomorrow morning, then I will feel much better. We can make it work, they just have to have faith in us. If you haven't figured it out by now, our credit isn't all that great.
My sister is here. I love her.
By the way, what the fuck is up with the airport security? To quote a wise man, "They who would give up an essential liberty for temporary security, deserve neither liberty or security." It's true. There are a ton of men and women over there fighting for us, and it's wonderful, but I look forward to its end (should it ever cease). However, I am no fool. War has been waging for centuries. Men will always find new reasons and ways to destroy each other - should it be through the continuation of a long-exhausted conflict, or the rise of a new one.
By the way, there is a huge abandoned house next to the one we want, and my sister and I just watched Amityville Horror. Can't wait to move now.
Friday, 18 December 2009
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Just do it.
Ok, so maybe I shouldn't have had mac and cheese with bread at Panera, but in my defense, I didn't really eat ANYTHING that day. So there. If anything, bread should be my motivation!
Anyway, I was proud of myself this morning because we have bread and manchego in the kitchen but I haven't touched it and I'm about to go work out. Hoo ha! I can't wait to go running again - it makes me happier and healthier to burn calories and get my heart pumping. I really do believe it makes for a happier person; not just the chemical crap going into your brain, but it just feels good to look good and know that you're expanding your life span. Also, binging is bad - as is going cold turkey on food you love. It's all about moderation and little rewards, packed with exercise. And I don't mean run for 10 minutes then eat a tub of ice cream. Exercise and eat healthy for six days, and then treat yourself on the seventh, just for being awesome. Like Tiger Woods did.
Why is anyone shocked that they kept his endorsement deal?
The Cary Street Gym is going to open up in the spring and I couldn't be more excited. It's going to be gorgeous - I really love my college and have no desire to leave until it's done. Fred and I often think about going to NYC early and me resuming college there, but I just don't want to leave VCU. They are offering everything I need and I just have to keep pushing. I also don't want to leave my job at Barnes and Noble - I have it pretty good there. Luckily, I married a man that fully supports me. He even took the cheese away last night before we could do anymore damage.
This house hunting has been a pain. We found the perfect house, and the day before we were to apply, someone else grabbed it. What are the freakin' chances?! Really, though, I'm depressed over it. It was the absolute perfect house - it epitomized everything we have ever wanted in a house. It's really hard to find a nice house like that one with our budget.
Life seriously sucks so much sometimes.
Wednesday, 16 December 2009
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So, unlike a lot of people that enjoy food, my downfall is not in soda, chocolate, or chips. I do not find the ultimate comfort in Ben and Jerry's and I can manage without having Doritos with my sandwich. I actually despise soda with a passion. The stuff is just a sticky, smelly mixture of sticky... smelly.. stuff.
No, my downfall is carbs. And cheese. Oh God. I could eat a whole baguette with Spanish manchego in five minutes flat. Combined with champagne, it instantly becomes my favorite meal.
I have to break this habit. Pasta, homemade mac and cheese, and tons of swiss on my sandwiches - it's killing me. What's worse is that the hubs and I battle it out over this deliciousness all the time. Then he makes this delicious soda bread (baking soda, not soda pop!) and with some cranberry sauce on top... ooh God, it probably doesn't help my weight strategy to be talking about it.
I love seafood, so maybe we should just stick to that and put a little bread in here and there. The post that's on the featured list is no help - it says cheese in your diet is actually good for you! In the long run, and in moderation, of course.
Still - that just makes my mind go "YUM! YAY!"
Ah sweet ninny muggins. -
Ok, so you wouldn't believe it, but I've already lost about 25 pounds in the past two years. Slow, I know, but that's why I made this blog. You see, I am serious about losing weight. Not like some of the people that say "yeah, I'll exercise tomorrow" while they chow down on some Fritos in front of Maury. No, I've been quite serious about it in the past, but my body falls to illness easily. Well, it's time to tough through it - the only way my immune system will get better is if I allow the rest of my body the same love.
I've got muscle and I'm by no means a fat ass. But I need to shave off about 50 pounds. I'm realistically shooting for 30 at this point. I believe that is obtainable by fall.
Go me, baby.

